What a diabolically clever little monster. Beware of triggers.

I feel a little better, and in less than five minutes I start falling apart again…

It’s exhausting. 

The thing about mental illnesses is, people just expect you to deal with it and shut up.

I felt really horrible a little while go. I kept breaking down in tears. So I went in the bathroom and picked my skin. There wasn’t much damage to do, but I felt better. I feel a little better. I know it’s not good, and it’s a horrible way to deal with things. The picking has been getting really bad lately…I run my hands up and down my arms and it’s all scabs. I can’t touch them without picking something. And they were healing really well too, before all of this. But what happened just drained me. I feel completely lost. I’m sitting around thinking about nothing and everything and it hurts. Reallybad

But picking helped, and I might have to do it more.  I know I’m going to regret it, I regret it now, but it’s better than falling apart again.  I don’t want to keep crying, I feel so tired.



youre gonna look so goddamn cool


(Source: lewky)


Words to keep inside your pocket:

  • Quiescent - a quiet, soft-spoken soul.
  • Chimerical - merely imaginary; fanciful. 
  • Susurrus - a whispering or rustling sound. 
  • Raconteur - one who excels in story-telling. 
  • Clinquant - glittering; tinsel-like. 
  • Aubade - a song greeting the dawn. 
  • Ephemeral - lasting a very short time. 
  • Sempiternal - everlasting; eternal. 
  • Euphonious - pleasing; sweet in sound. 
  • Billet-doux - a love letter. 
  • Redamancy - act of loving in return.
Reveal nothing about yourself. It drives people crazy.
I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn’t change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have.
The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky  (via ibecamethesun)



(Source: shemolaxing)




stay away from people who make you feel like you are hard to love

This is the most important thing I have ever read.


Put on a happy face…


Put on a happy face…



Let me call you a bag of bones, anorexic twig, and tell you how you’re the worst person ever promoting eating disorders and should be ashamed of yourself or die. Let me put my hands all over you laughing at how my hands go around your wrists and say and do all these horrible things because of how…

People used to do this to my sister and it pissed me off so much. I myself want to loose weight, but I never shamed her for being skinny. I’d never treat her as if her feelings were invalid, just because I wanted to look like her. I hate when people do this shit, to anyone.