What a diabolically clever little monster. Beware of triggers.

Everything is just going bad. It’s one thing after another. Misery, disappointment, and now fear…

Why can’t I ever help anybody? This is really getting to be too much, there’s too much going on, and now I have to go and pretend I’m okay for a whole week, and everyone is going to be asking me question after question. I just want to stay away from everything, and go back to when things weren’t like this.

It gets bad so quickly, it’s like I can’t have anything good, I always have to worry and wonder if everyone is going to be okay. And I’m still not okay myself.  

I’m not even going to break down and cry this time, I’m just going to sit here and feel…like this.


(Source: dean-the-killer)


I feel a little better, and in less than five minutes I start falling apart again…

It’s exhausting. 

The thing about mental illnesses is, people just expect you to deal with it and shut up.

I felt really horrible a little while go. I kept breaking down in tears. So I went in the bathroom and picked my skin. There wasn’t much damage to do, but I felt better. I feel a little better. I know it’s not good, and it’s a horrible way to deal with things. The picking has been getting really bad lately…I run my hands up and down my arms and it’s all scabs. I can’t touch them without picking something. And they were healing really well too, before all of this. But what happened just drained me. I feel completely lost. I’m sitting around thinking about nothing and everything and it hurts. Reallybad

But picking helped, and I might have to do it more.  I know I’m going to regret it, I regret it now, but it’s better than falling apart again.  I don’t want to keep crying, I feel so tired.



youre gonna look so goddamn cool


(Source: lewky)


Words to keep inside your pocket:

  • Quiescent - a quiet, soft-spoken soul.
  • Chimerical - merely imaginary; fanciful. 
  • Susurrus - a whispering or rustling sound. 
  • Raconteur - one who excels in story-telling. 
  • Clinquant - glittering; tinsel-like. 
  • Aubade - a song greeting the dawn. 
  • Ephemeral - lasting a very short time. 
  • Sempiternal - everlasting; eternal. 
  • Euphonious - pleasing; sweet in sound. 
  • Billet-doux - a love letter. 
  • Redamancy - act of loving in return.
Reveal nothing about yourself. It drives people crazy.
I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn’t change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have.
The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky  (via ibecamethesun)



(Source: shemolaxing)




stay away from people who make you feel like you are hard to love

This is the most important thing I have ever read.


Put on a happy face…


Put on a happy face…